I feel tired, exhausted and just a little sick of life. I think I might be disappointed. Perhaps, I hold expectations of myself and everyone around me too high.
Jewel
Live to be inspired.
November 15, 2009Life is short.
We live life as if there was a long way more to go. I was there on stage, looking at some of the kids in my church, and memories of my childhood seem to to flash past me. When did it pass away? When did I become a 27 year old adult?
And when Pastor Rachel started her sermon with life is short. I agreed.
What really matters is what we make out of life.
I do not seem to remember now how it felt every morning when i wake up, the fear of going to school for my PE lessons. The tiring feeling in me, breathless and helpless.
It all seemed to be a part of yesterday. But since when did life start and when did it come to this stage?
Suddenly, I realize that every moment of our life needs to be treasured. At times, I pray for the weekend to be here fast enough so as I need not think about work. But how can i neglect that important 5 days of my life, and ignore it and wish it will pass quickly?
It should be as important as the weekends. Enjoy what you are doing. For you might miss it one day.
A world within A World Within
November 14, 2009Sitting here in the office again once more, alone and looking at the snow globes that has the glitter flowing around the glass ball, with the chime-y music cranking and the Snow White figurine sitting on her rocking chair bobbing up and down with the music; all these makes me think. When did all these ended and all that is in my life began. Did I give up too quickly? Am I contented now? Am I letting this go down like this?
Perhaps, for my customer to come again revived these memories of hard work that all four of us put in for A World Within.
Too many things seem to be going on in my life that I cannot seem to find time for much.
Along the way, many dreams are forgotten.
This Christmas, I want to walk down that path again. To take that little walk in my dreams down the victorian path ways that I see in my mind, with the shophouses filled with christmas decorations and snowglobes playing all around. With children rushing into the shops, excited to see what this Christmas has in store for them.
With a fulfillment of the dream that i hold tight.
In this world, our temporary existence, might just hold the dreams in my mind
In deep thoughts,
Jewel
An unusual turn of events
November 4, 2009Was standing in the middle of That Cd shop listening to Olivia Ong’s CDs when I received an SMS that I never thought would ever happen.
Life seems so fragile, unexpected and regrettable. Many what if-s arises in my mind. So much so that I did not want to even try the empathy game.
How can I ever understand the regret and the pain?
We need to treasure the people around us. And like my very own email signature says: be kind to everyone for you never know what he might be going through. It takes a lot of pain and determination to choose that road.
I pray that Lord at the split second, save him. I trust in your mercy and grace.
Nothing can be quite as bad as this, we should all see that time once gone can never return.
Jewel – life seems to have arrived at a pause today.
Year end update and review
November 2, 2009Today’s date: 2nd November 2009, Monday.
A year has passed, it seemed like yesterday that I just returned to Citi. A quick check on status on Saturday led me to witness God’s mercy and grace so much more. How is it possible that a year could drastically change our lives and lead us out of situations.
God has revealed himself month by month to me that His grace is sufficient for me, and He will provide all of my needs.
Thus, this month is to be kept in check. In preparation for the end of 2009, and looking forward to the start of 2010.
To move on in faith that our God is watching over all my needs.
Like Pastor Kong Hee’s sermon, that He will plant not only good dreams but God given dreams.
Amen.
Fear.
November 1, 2009Fear is when you no longer trust that God will take care of you. Recently I have a fear of losing my loved ones. Fear of them suffering, fear of lots of things. And with it comes skepticism, judgement and despair.
Lord, help me to realign my heart and my thoughts. Amen,
Citibank’s Praxis Financial Challenge
October 28, 2009I am really into these financial planning stuff recently. We formed a team to join this year’s challenge! Joined for the fun of it! And never expected we could win! So some pointers I got out of this game was:
1. The insurance factor. The first round that I became broke was because I did not purchase adequate insurance and I had to pay for an extra 2 months of hospital bills. I needed to take a loan already! But good thing I could sell some stocks I purchased at the start of the game. Thus always keep some spare cash for emergency reasons.
2. Always accumulate savings and not to over invest oneself.
3. Avoid the hype. Aloysius earned $54,000 from a big jump in the stock market and he wante to earn more so he dumped all his money into the stock market again only to know that it crashed. Gosh, I too was tempted. But stored some reserves that I made from selling my properties.
4. The unexpected. Be prepared, you never know what is coming up.
It was fun!
Jewel
An active note to oneself
October 24, 2009I once read in a blog by someone. A testimony he saw of a changed life, was due to a decision he made one day. It was a changed life from a major decision that ones makes, and the daily decisions that he continues to make along the way that transforms life.
Like my decision to decrease expenses. It was a decision made, but I needed to remind myself and decide again every day. Till it becomes a part of me.
I went to Ikea yesterday. Saw cups that we needed: $0.90 each! Happily we wanted to buy 4 of them. Went over and since we needed to buy cups, why not buy nicer ones that were slightly more expensive. Deliberated and finally caught myself. No, its a decision not to spend unnecessarily. Thus, we cut down some more. Instead of buying 4 cups, we bought 2. $1.80 we would have spent $$50 if i had not controlled myself by making that decision once more.
Why? Cos I saw a trash can i was looking for mocha’s food pack ever since i saw that tip in Martha Stewart’s website! And it would have cost me $39.90.
Alas, that saved me some money.
So eventually, its a life long journey. To make decisions everyday.
I just made one earlier. I wanted some interesting dinner. And thought I could order delifrance!! And excitedly went to the menu to take a look. But it was a $25 minimum meal.
Looking and making a decision. Took a step back and asked darling instead to buy different items for dinner from the hawker centre! And if i took a quick count, should not add up to $15! Thats a $10 savings.
Another decision made!
Jewel
